Be Strong

Bila kiter di timpa masalah atau musibah, pasti kiter akan tertanya-tanya kenapa lah benda seperti ni boleh berlaku. Penuh dengan tanda tanya. Why must it be me? Tapi pernahkan kiter fikir, perhaps at the other end of the world, ada orang yang lebih teruk dugaannya? Well for me, I don't have to look far...

Semalam J masuk ofis dlm pukul 3 petang gitu. Kiter pung heran apsal masuk lambat. Kalau apply morning leave pun, dia sepatutnya kena masuk kerja kul 1. Kalau dah kul 3, lebih baik amik full day skali kan senang. Tak berapa minit gitu, taim kiter on the way gi toilet, dia bangun dari tempat duduk and approached me. Dia cakap dia baru balik dari hantar bapak dia gi check-up pat hospital. Oh kisahnya...memang dat time dia pernah cerita yg bapak dia ada problem buang air besar. But I never expected this story from her (please note that these are not her exact words. I'm trying to recall as much as I could):

"I've just came back from the hospital. Accompanied my dad for check-up. He's diagnosed with cancer of the intestine. And the cancer is spreading. I'm sorry I may not be able to go to XXJC with you on 12 Oct cos' I need to bring him to the hospital again on that day. I need you to find a replacement for me. The doctor may be doing chemotheraphy for him...I'm not too sure. My dad was expressionless. Maybe he's in shock when I told him that he got cancer or maybe he already expected it. He's 66. And more bad news for me, NKF said my mum may go anytime. Her body is rejecting the dialysis. Her heartrate is getting lower and lower as the day goes by. I somehow expected the news. She's already without her limbs. She has suffered for 10 years alreadly. Maybe it's really time for her to rest. And now with these news about my dad...."

Kiter tengok mata J dah tearing. Kiter cakap dia tak perlu risau pasal dat exhibition on 12 Oct. I dunno whatelse to say so I just held her hands. Kita harap dia tabah menerima dugaan ni. Walaupun dia orang kafir, kita doakan yg terbaik buat dia.

J...be strong.